.Wednesday, April 13, 2005 ' 11:05 PM Y
so its over.. =(.. no more stress .. but.. we didnt get the results we wanted larh.. at least we are a GOLD band.. without honours.. =(.. but nvm.. jiayou sec 2s.. we shall da bai st patricks in year 2007!... we will get gold with honours then!.. lets start training now =).. but it wont be the same le =(.. sec 3s and 4s would b gone by then =(.. just hope the sec 1s will be inspired by our crying today =X.. and they also hav the same dream as us..
shall crap abt it larh.. i was so confused just now =X.. donno what i should be feeling..
so.. early in the morning.. audi prac.. den lesson.. keep on looking at the clock.. haha.. nvr pay attention.. and thankew for all the wishes =).. so nice.. but wo men rang ni men shi wang le =(.. after tt prepare larh.. tune for quite long.. den zou le.. i was so excited the whole morning =).. jumping up and down.. feeling super hyper =).. i woke up at around 5+ today lorh.. on my own.. den couldnt sleep =X.. nor could i stay still for more than 30 sec..=\.. so excited..
so we reached there.. early =).. den waited.. while some ppl ate pandan bread and drank water.. poor sec 1s.. hav to carry everything for us.. haha.. and we listened to mr singer's voice for a while.. although i couldnt hear most of it.. den waited and waited.. and guess what.. i saw ming liang.. =\.. den i immediately know the band is nan hua.. he's as white as ever.. haha.. but grew taller le.. haha.. now about average height i think.. quite scary =X.. quite shocked also.. haha.. so we went up..
waited and waited again.. den go inside tuning room.. played.. my tuning was alright in there... den waited outside the hall le.. watched from the tv.. the band before us.. isit guo chuan? dunno how to spell larh.. den was thinking that they so pro.. although before tt we heard that they are actually a lan band.. the tv got problem larh.. make everyone sounds so nice.. den a few people started crying le.. =(.. jiayoued one another.. den its show time...
went in.. on stage.. didnt hav much audience larh.. the middle was all empty.. except the four? judges.. den the sides and front then hav ppl.. yay.. thankew sec 1s for cheering us on =).. den hand was shaking.. cannot really think straight.. but at least it sounded quite nice.. den play play play v shuang =).. think we did quite well.. den go on to seventh night of july.. i was playing as usual.. surprisingly.. didnt really panic.. but i went out of tune!.. clara loh also!.. den both of us like.. out of the band.. wanted to play soft soft but i heard clara also play loud.. den heck.. play loud.. was hoping that nobody will find out its out of tune.. cos both of us the same.. hahah.. bar 205.. i luv the trumpets =).. make me hav goosebumps.. yay..you all were great =).. it sounded grand.. and i agree with those who listened to us play.. its one of our best performances =).. at least it didnt sound distant.. cos i was expecting really dispersed sound due to the hall itself.. like audi like tt =X.. but lucky didnt.. and we had loads of emotions.. i can feel it larh.. mayb i wanted to cry.. but was concentrating on the song.. den go off le.. *snap* its over just like tt.. den go out..
people started crying ='(.. i almost cried also larh.. i see people cry i will cry de!.. so was tearing.. den i looked away.. saw the tv.. ahmad ibrahim sounded great too!.. was super scared.. every band sounded perfect.. the tv got problem larh!.. send for repair!...
after ahmad ibrahim finished le.. we finally get to go in.. st pats played.. their playing was.. almost perfect i think.. perfect i should say.. but no emotions de.. and they work as though they are machines.. breath so drama one.. haha.. and i saw some clarinets.. they breath with the band just to get the sound.. but after tt they didnt play.. =\.. quite lame.. sounded like the wind.. and they were super stiff.. whole time they were sitting up so straight.. nvr move.. but tt band was the best band out of all the bands we heard larh.. other bands.. most of them they screwed their singapore rhapsody.. go out of tune.. out of beat.. etc etc.. but their choice piece was fantastic.. so the singapore rhapsody v ke xi.. =(.. also cannot blame them.. i think is cos of nervousness.. and it went like forever.. we finally realised how the judges feel.. was so xian diao.. finally is the results time..
wanted to scream larh!!!!.. so everyone held each other's hands real tight.. sunk into our seats.. alot prepared their hp le.. and we were really hoping that we get gold with honours.. although i was thinking of silver.. was telling judy tt if we get silver.. i will cry my hearts out.. she keep on toking abt gold larh.. den i donno how to react.. at first i was thinking that i will cry.. cos we didnt get gold with honours.. but think abt it.. like what judy said.. even tkgs is only a gold band.. the best girls school in singapore.. so if we get gold is the same standard as them also.. yuhua didnt get too.. haix.. so yarh.. mayb i will be happy.. or mayb not happy nor sad.. i was actually expecting the worst but hope for the best.. so we continued to sink into our seats.. and paniced.. ahmad ibrahim ppl v nice.. they saw us so worried.. they told us to fang xin.. say we will get gold with honours de.. and they v friendly =).. reassured us..
results.. waited so super long... shuqun only got silver =(.. couldnt believe it.. nanhua got silver also.. alot of bands hav silver.. finally.. guo chuan.. bronze.. band no. 84.. nanyang girls high.. gold.. everyone was waiting for the last two words larh!... but it nvr came.. and they went on to the nxt school... sheeet.. i started tearing larh.. cried.. actually not so bad.. but still cried quite alot.. really wanted tt gold with honours.. went on to ahmad ibrahim.. silver.. den st pats.. gold with honours.. after i heard tt i cried like siao.... couldnt control... tears just flowed like hell.. actually i was expecting them to get gold with honours since we didnt get.. after tt i didnt hear other results le.. was so disappointed.. i also dunno why i cried until like tt.. and soree larh judy.. made you cry also.. i thought i was the only one who is crying like hell.. but i looked around.. almost all nycb members' faces were red.. full of tears.. all hugging each other.. sat quite long in the hall while waiting for our bus to come.. continued crying.. st pat started cheering.. actually our band v guai4.. we get gold still v upset.. other bands they get bronze they cheer like mad le.. when they announced our results there was only a dead applause.. not really dead.. well.. applause from other bands i think.. but nobody in our band clapped i guess.. so after a no of bands cheered.. nycb tried cheering also larh.. our ex seniors all lead.. but only afew ppl were cheering.. those com members i think.. although they v upset also.. but they tried to make us cheer up.. but they cheered v loudly.. i wanted to cheer larh.. aiyah.. but i cry until i cant even tok.......... so our ex seniors continued to try to cheer us up.. say at least we maintained our standard.. we proved to others tt we are solid gold band.. cos two years ago tt was the first time in so many years they got gold.. and ppl think tt its by luck de.. at least now we showed tt we are a real gold band.. and mrs wong informed mdm mak i think.. and the reply was.. well done.. you all hav done the school proud.. den i started crying even more......... bleah.. other performing arts.. choir and chinese dance.. get gold with honours .. and nycb.. gold.. so we went out... quite alot of ppl tried cheering us up.. say we got gold.. smile.. but nobody could smile.. except yanzhen and yumin.. they so jian qiang.. i know they are actually v v upset de.. but they dont want us to get overly disappointed.. they put up a false front..
went all the way down... mrs teo was trying to make everyone proud of ourselves again lahr.. say we are not a COP band.. so why should we cry out of sadness?.. saying we are a gold band.. but we look like a COP band.. but we still continued crying.. our band is the only one whose members.. erm.. most of the members cry de.. almost the whole band.. other bands only hav a few ppl cried?.. some none at all.. so mrs teo told us to stop crying.. and smile.. she failed again.. all the way out.. we continued waiting for the bus.. was actually quite hungry de.. no appetite.. mrs wong was trying to force us to eat the bread.. and ms chong was still trying to cheer us up.. keep on saying solid gold band solid gold band.. she looked quite happy.. but she in the end she cried.. cos she saw us keep on crying.. but she also say tt we deserve the gold with honours more than st pats.. but no matter what the results is.. we are still gold with honours in our eyes.. and said that cos the judges are guys.. dey don hav emotions de.. they only know how to judge according to technical de.. even tkgs cant even get gold with honours.. so we are up to their standard.. we should b happy about that.. after hearing that we cried even more larh.. den we hugged each other even tighter.. really tried to stop myself from crying.. but.. haix.. and thankew nut.. for trying to make me smile for that 1-2 sec twice.. so we went up the bus..
went on the bus.. i sort of stopped crying le.. by then 7.30 le.. i cried for how long le arh.. v long.. but they started toking abt syf again.. yumin and mr lim.. continued to encourage.. den started crying again.. all the way until dunno what time.. reached school still crying.. =X.. i stopped abit here and there larh.. but after a while still cried.. just nice boarding school had fire drill.. so alot of ppl there.. yingting yeexingyee and tianyu saw me and hugged me larh.. my eyes started pouring again.. cos of the way i said it i think.. " we only got gold".. and they say its alright larh.. haix.. i write this blog im also crying larh!.. when will i get over it.. so went up.. pack..
the two cockroaches made us smile since along time.. everyone was screaming and standing on the chairs.. hahaha.. was really forcing back my tears.. den the teachers tok to us again.. mr lim cracked lame jokes larh.. ahha.. he so funny.. laughed quite a while.. den i saw the "we got the GOLD" on the board.. and they started saying tt we did v well.. gold with honours to us.. basically saying the same thing over and over again.. den i couldnt control myself.. cried again.. when almost the whole band calm down le.. did cheering again.. and three cheers for teachers.. ms chong.. yan zhen and yu min.. and nycb.. and we started throwing our scarves up in the air.. took photos =).. was fun.. ok.. so i stopped crying.. and the whole band went to kap.. to celebrate.. sort of.. although everyone was disappointed.. den i stopped crying larh.. so we ate.. drank alot.. was super thirsty.. started tearing when i saw jocelyn's sms... its jocelyn's right?.. i think so.. she write essay.. after tt go home le..
yes.. i cried before i sleep.. couldnt sleep at first.. den started thinking that we are a gold band.. not silver nor bronze.. and think about other stuff.. happy stuff.. before i could sleep..
alot of ppl wanted to pon school lorh.. which is today.. cos today is the 14 april.. yarh.. i write halfway yesterday.. and true enough.. yan zhen ... joanna.. da sylvia.. stephanie.. clara lu.. and who else?.. i donno.. quite a no... they really ponned.. no face to face the school =(..
but actually seriously speaking.. i think we are quite lucky tt we get gold.. we could hav gotten silver or bronze if we played out of tune.. at least we are above average.. and we should be happy.. we are always a gold with honours band in our own eyes =).. and i know the journey is more important than the destination.. i also dunno why i take it so seriously.. think cos since the beginning of the year.. i really really want tt gold with honours.. tts why i stayed back almost everyday.. although we slacked.. at least we practiced quite abit.. the people who are most upset now are the sec 4s.. =(.. yasi.. chia meng.. yumin.. yan zhen.. and everyone is now relying on the sec 2s.. two years down the road.. we will get tt gold with honours!.. then we will show ourselves and others what we are really made up of =)..
