.Wednesday, December 31, 2008 ' 4:07 PM Y
(p.s. actually i typed this yesterday)
okay its the time of the year again when everyone starts writing down their new year resolutions..
guess this post is going to be a huge contrast from that of last yr's.. you can go to archive and see how cheerful i was back then.. so many things can happen within a yr..
this yr has pretty much been a sheety yr for me >.<.. in fact i think its the worst yr of my 17 yrs of life so far.. i havnt shed so much tears in a yr.. gotten into so many quarrels.. nor had so many regrets.. although there has been some really memorable moments..(i really want to thank all those who hav made these moments possible).. but i guess overall.. it hasnt been as unfilling as i would want it to be..
so my resolution for next year? i guess its pretty simple this time round.. all i want is to get back to being my old happy self.. i suppose i will just focus on the tasks that i have at hand nxt yr.. lets see..
mon: H3
tues: ?? (im guessing tt sectionals will be on this day nearer syf)
wed: band prac
thurs: H3
fri: band prac
sat: chingay rehearsals (luckily its going to end by feb =))
sun: rest day/ catch up on work day/ tidying of stuff day.. (contemplating in making it like yesterday.. guess that i will be able to accomplish alot if i do it on a weekly basis)
tt leaves me almost no time to focus on anithing else.. i guess tts good in a way..
i just dun want to disappoint anione animore.. esp my parents.. i can still rmb the disappointment of my grandmother when she received the letter bearing my block test results >.<.. i mean.. they have put in a great deal of effort in making us be able to get through school in singapore.. (yes, i learnt this holiday.. how my parents were criticised 10 yrs back when they insisted on sending us to singapore..)they gave us all the freedom we wanted.. not interfering us in the decisions that we make.. and i appreciate all that.. all these yrs.. no matter how much disappointment i have caused them or how unreasonable i get.. they nvr raised their voices at me.. now i kinda regret not staying in indo for a little longer.. and complaining that i want the trip to be cut short.. i have been taking them for granted eh.. but i suddenly miss them alot =(.. all i know is that the least i could do is repay them by trying my best and doing well in school.. and when they do come to visit.. i will try to spend as much time with them as possible..
to those that i have offended this yr.. i sincerely apologise for causing so much unnecessary problems.. regardless of the reason behind the disagreement.. at this point of time.. i rather put all the blame on myself and prevent ani further arguments from happening.. to those that have cared for me in one way or another.. thank you from the bottom of my heart =).. i wont have gotten through the toughest times without all of your concern =).. special thanks goes to gwen and fairygodsister!.. thank you for always trying to cheer me up and being there for me whenever i needed them =) love you guys loads!
its a brand new yr.. 2009.. im sure it will be a much better yr =)
