in the last 3 hrs of this yr.. i guess i should just shut up and not listen to anithing.. things just have to get from bad to worse..

my tears are seriously drying up

omg.. my mum just called to say that there was another earthquake in my hometown today >.<.. im just glad that everyone's safe.. hai.. i hope this brings a closure to the yr >.<

(p.s. actually i typed this yesterday)

okay its the time of the year again when everyone starts writing down their new year resolutions..

guess this post is going to be a huge contrast from that of last yr's.. you can go to archive and see how cheerful i was back then.. so many things can happen within a yr..

this yr has pretty much been a sheety yr for me >.<.. in fact i think its the worst yr of my 17 yrs of life so far.. i havnt shed so much tears in a yr.. gotten into so many quarrels.. nor had so many regrets.. although there has been some really memorable moments..(i really want to thank all those who hav made these moments possible).. but i guess overall.. it hasnt been as unfilling as i would want it to be..

so my resolution for next year? i guess its pretty simple this time round.. all i want is to get back to being my old happy self.. i suppose i will just focus on the tasks that i have at hand nxt yr.. lets see..

mon: H3
tues: ?? (im guessing tt sectionals will be on this day nearer syf)
wed: band prac
thurs: H3
fri: band prac
sat: chingay rehearsals (luckily its going to end by feb =))
sun: rest day/ catch up on work day/ tidying of stuff day.. (contemplating in making it like yesterday.. guess that i will be able to accomplish alot if i do it on a weekly basis)

tt leaves me almost no time to focus on anithing else.. i guess tts good in a way..

i just dun want to disappoint anione animore.. esp my parents.. i can still rmb the disappointment of my grandmother when she received the letter bearing my block test results >.<.. i mean.. they have put in a great deal of effort in making us be able to get through school in singapore.. (yes, i learnt this holiday.. how my parents were criticised 10 yrs back when they insisted on sending us to singapore..)they gave us all the freedom we wanted.. not interfering us in the decisions that we make.. and i appreciate all that.. all these yrs.. no matter how much disappointment i have caused them or how unreasonable i get.. they nvr raised their voices at me.. now i kinda regret not staying in indo for a little longer.. and complaining that i want the trip to be cut short.. i have been taking them for granted eh.. but i suddenly miss them alot =(.. all i know is that the least i could do is repay them by trying my best and doing well in school.. and when they do come to visit.. i will try to spend as much time with them as possible..

to those that i have offended this yr.. i sincerely apologise for causing so much unnecessary problems.. regardless of the reason behind the disagreement.. at this point of time.. i rather put all the blame on myself and prevent ani further arguments from happening.. to those that have cared for me in one way or another.. thank you from the bottom of my heart =).. i wont have gotten through the toughest times without all of your concern =).. special thanks goes to gwen and fairygodsister!.. thank you for always trying to cheer me up and being there for me whenever i needed them =) love you guys loads!

its a brand new yr.. 2009.. im sure it will be a much better yr =)

hello! =) just wanted to post abt something! pls dont bother trying to contact me today!.. gonna off my phone for most of the day.. and not gonna come online..

dont worry..im not upset nor emo abt anithing.. just needed some time alone to reflect abt this yr focus on my pile of undone hw!

i promise to reply as soon as i switch my hp back on.. if there's anithing urgent.. can always call my home no if you hav it..

okay byebye! =)

disappointed.

i realised something.. no matter what happens.. i realise your family is the one who will care about you most.. and yet they tend to be the ones whom you take for granted..

i will nvr take the people who care for me for granted animore.. =)

wahh.. omg.. this is a warning to everyone to never patronise the converse stall at OG orchard if you want to have a pleasant shopping trip =.=..

omg.. that stupid salesperson totally ruined my day la! OMG.. i still cant believe at the way she seems to despise her customers.. or how plain lazy/annoying/bitchy she is.. she's lucky that i could control myself.. had to cause i was wearing sch u >.<.. but my mum was really v angry when she saw what happened la.. haha! after i turned away.. i immediately told my mum that she was just plain RUDE.. and got fed up =.=.. and that even if they have something that i really really yearn for.. i will nvr bother buying from them.. rather spend more money and spend the trouble to go to another shop.. haha! my mum totally agreed la.. and my mum said that she will do something if she were me =p.. LOL.. my mum is funny =).. i can imagine my mum doing that if she's in a good mood.. otherwise.. i can totally imagine her giving the salesperson a scolding on the spot.. HAHA.. we should award her with a 'worst salesperson' award man! im sure she will win it easily =).. hadn't met anione worse than her.. all i can say is that she's lucky i wasnt in my casual clothes.. otherwise she wont have gotten off so easily..

:D:D:D:D:D:D

happy boxing day!!!

but most importantly...




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and now i cant fall asleep~~~

MERRY XMAS :D haha it doesnt really feel like christmas cause its so quiet here!.. tt i didnt realise it was christmas until 3 mins past midnight! =p.. there wasnt anione screaming away nor shouting during countdown downstairs.. unlike last yr.. well.. at least there's the usual spamming of xmas smses >.< haha! thx all :D

yadeedaa.. i dunno why but i have been feeling v zi zai these two days =) you know that kinda feeling when you feel as though you hav no frustrations at all.. and no matter what unpleasant things you think of.. you just cant seem to get angry =p.. inner peace :D havnt had this feeling for a really long time.. but the feeling is really great :D if only it can last.. hmm..

okay its christmas! =) what are you doing staying at home!! xD

wahahha my sis just called to tell me that she found the converse shoes which i have been eyeing for one month :D YAYYYY sheet.. should hav gone with my mum and sis to bukit batok just now.. cynthia is a happy girl :D i want the shoes now now now!! :D still contemplating whether to wear it to school.. cause its PINKKK :D but i prefer the purple one actually... hmm.. who wants to go to bukit batok these few days with me :D

tag replies!

spongebob: YOU CHEATEDDD!!! patrick is so disappointed in you :D
jas: haha its alright!! so many ppl who tried the test got help la! at least you are honest unlike some ppl! -glares-
xq: you havnt even started on your hw la! still say me! and stop eating you pig! >:)
gwen: cheemology :D you dun be angry le alright!
lionel: happy christmas eve to you too!! and omg.. why everyone sleep so late! o.0
lz: haha! ehh.. i dun even know what im talking abt leh!! =p hidden msg!
junjie: yeah! otherwise ppl will continue complaining that i nvr blog!! haha.. you have a great christmas eve too!

woots! its christmas eve already! =) MERRY CHRISTMAS EVE EVERYONE :D

tmr is christmas! how are you going to celebrate! i rather stay at home and SLEEP :D everywhere so crowded la...

and the day after christmas!! :D:D:D lalala~~

hmm.. wanted to blog abt something again.. but i forgot =p.. till i rmb!!! cya~

haha yes im here to blog! no one liners! :D pls stop hamtaming me to blog now!! :D

aniway! today's philyouth concert was pretty good i must say.. ehh dun feel like blogging abt what happened leh.. just that i havnt really been to concerts for v long.. (last one was noel but its not counted!) haha.. so yeah :D nice to be watching concerts again!! ohhh but we saw fiona xie at macdonalds! and yesterday i saw patricia mok at orchard!! shant disclose what my sis said abt her =p

let's talk abt cheem stuff! to try to make this post longer! hmm.. lets see.. i guess i shall be doing the more serious reflecting part nxt week.. like what happens every yr end! new yr resolutions and all.. but i dunno la.. have been doing some thinking today.. just thought that relationships are v fragile.. be it friendship, family ties, or bgr.. a single element can ruin everything.. and when there are disagreements.. its just hard to please both parties.. dunno ba.. but i realised i came through lots of such scenarios in the past yr.. personal experience included.. noone's truly at fault in the end.. but the outcome has to be just like that.. blame it on human emotions that the world is such a complicated place..

well for myself.. i think i will need to learn how to let go of some stuff.. although i have been trying it for months.. guess i havnt tried hard enough.. sometimes i wish that the world is a much simpler place to live in.. its either right or wrong.. and that there are no different perspectives depending on your standpoint.. guess thats nvr going to happen.. so yeah! learn to live with it =)

haha omg reading back.. i have completely no idea of what i just typed!! paiseh... hiatus for too long le >.< need to learn how to blog again..

MERRY CHRISTMAS IN ADVANCE :D

omgg its freaking frustrating when you stare at your work for the past 3 hrs and you can only do half a question.. urghhhhhhh

i cant believe holidays is ending in 3 weeks time =( i dont want school to start again!!! cause all i know is that the first half of the yr will be unbelievably hectic =( boo.. i still wanna play somemore! must treasure the nxt three weeks!

anione wants to do hw together with me? :D my brain is seriously dead.. need someone to force me to do hw otherwise i will just end up sleeping again xD must do finish asap so that i dun need to worry abt it animore >.<

enjoy the rest of your holidays :D

in an attempt to revive my blog.. i've put a test on the right column :D you can do it if you are bored =p

havnt blogged in quite a while.. nth much to blog abt eh >.<.. but woohoo :D i finally packed the whole mess in my room :D until i realised that there's another stack i missed out at another corner of the room at least everything's more organised now :D

hmm.. anione knows how i can add colour to my post? i think it has something to do with the template =(

jingle bell jingle bell! :D no more default blogskins! :D

why does everything seem to be going wrong.. rawr :(

woohoo! =) at least everything is finally done.. sry for being so short tempered just now >.< and thanks so much to all those who came down to help =) really really appreciate it!

*yawns*.. shall go sleep soon =)

haha ultimate band saikang warrior grp 1! :D


woots.. feel so accomplished =) cleared heaps and heaps of dust! at least the bandroom seems so clean now :D thank you to all those who came to help today :D you guys are really efficient la! overall i think it was pretty fun.. esp when we painted the yellow! yes.. whitewashing is quite boring, not forgetting the odour =.=.. managed to achieve more than we planned today =p 9am-6+pm.. work OT without pay sia =)..

who wanna be in band saikang warrior grp 2! pls come tmr :D wont hav that much to do tmr le la.. only 2 walls of orange.. and touching up of the yellow.. and we are done! :D

yeah i know my blog is kinda dead xD sry! aniway it has been kinda eventful ever since i came back to singapore =)but v tired now la.. *yawns*.. have been feeling super sotong these few days xD better sleep soon.. hopefully i will be more alert tmr!

looking forward to bandroom revamp for the nxt three days! *prays hard that everything will turn out nice :D*

haha i feel v guilty >.< after 2 weeks break.. feeling super nua now.. zzz.. better get back on track!

and great concert last night :D <3 hcband!

this post is dedicated to my beloved dad..

HELLO DADDY!! :D i know you will be laughing if you read this! there's nothing interesting on my blog.. and you are supposed to be doing your work now xD or you can continue editting the many photos you have.. my blog is boring luh xD dont waste your time reading it alright :D BYEBYE!!!!

haha i havnt blogged for so long... aniway 2 weeks really pass v fast la >.< going back to singapore tmr! =) cant wait to watch noel! certainly had a good break in indo.. went to borobudur.. reunion with 29 family members xD.. going to the beach.. a few museums.. lots of nice sceneries.. went to a village.. visited an orphanage.. watched my sis translate for my dad for his business deal -.-..dinners with lots of ppl.. hair cut.. facial.. massage..went to the dentist to pluck 2 wisdom teeth =.=.. ate 5 donuts these few days =p.. had lots of other nice food :D.. really enjoyed life la =p

now that im going back to singapore.. i kinda cant bear to leave indo =(.. missed the chance to do other stuff like learning how to drive.. ice skating.. and playing with my relatives.. because we hav no more time left =(.. awww

okay i shall end here.. cya tmr :D

name: Cynthia!
age: twenty
birthday: 29/o1

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